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Post by Tom on Dec 12, 2020 3:41:19 GMT
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Post by Roy on Dec 12, 2020 17:59:59 GMT
Okay so this video is taking forever to upload but it’ll be up soon lmao
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Post by Roy on Dec 12, 2020 21:54:53 GMT
CONFESSIONAL #10: "IS IT BECAUSE I'M BLACK" MUST BE (JK LMAO)
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Post by Roy on Dec 13, 2020 16:41:09 GMT
Hey, everyone! So, its been a little while since I've done one of these written confessionals so I'm going to explain to you guys where I am with my game and my life.
I. am. exhausted.
Seriously. This has nothing to do with my disadvantaged position, it's just that because of my exhaustion I'm in this position because I've let my personal relationships go, I've found. Also being in this disadvantaged position it has exacerbated my exhaustion. Really, by the time we got to the Scavenger Hunt challenge, I knew I was in over my head. Coming out of Gilligan's Island, an extremely stressful game, I shouldn't have even sign up for this. But, it's Conquest and you don't say no to John Wilson. However, after my tenure in this game is over, I'm going to have to put more effort into my mental health. It's declining. Rapidly. Anyone who knows me KNOWS that this isn't what I usually talk about or am comfortable talking about. I don't care, though. I'm working a full time nine to five on a different shift than I've worked for two years, I'm in school, away from home for the first time, away from my family in the middle of a pandemic that's getting WORSE. I wanna put emphasis on the fact that I am the only person left in this game that isn't at home all the time too. So put that on the list. I am BURNT OUT.
All of that being said, if this is my swan song moment, I'll accept whatever come my way. Now onto the game.
So, I tried to win immunity and I flopped. Second again. I don't know what the tribe dynamic is like now, I just know that people are scared of me. What's new? You'd think everyone I'm playing with is an extreme dumbass in any game I play, the way that they cower in fear because I'm SO SMART. Says the Engineer. Says the Data Analyst. Anyways, my game is reliant upon Louise and Juju wanting to work with me and Danielle, and even Danielle at that seeing it fit in her storyline that I continue on. I'm not in a position to give names or make moves, I don't have that kind of power right now. I fail to see how Louise thinks this is gonna go for her if she goes with three Ealings into the final 6 with 3 Individual Immunity wins under her belt. Unless she feels really secure in other numbers, I feel like she may be giving herself a lower placement than she would deserve otherwise.
But if these really are my (hopefully) last moments in the game, I do want to give some closing remarks to some people. I hope that when the board opens up and they read this, they understand that it's written with all the love that I can muster right now, because I don't really want to talk to a lot of them after this. Sour grapes? I'd call it raisins, because I have no more sweet juices left in me.
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Post by Roy on Dec 13, 2020 16:45:32 GMT
Zaid - Fuck you, you pompous asshole. After everything I've done and said to you, to reassure you that you could do well in this game as a PoC, you shit on me and don't even have the time of day to show empathy. You skirted your actions in this game and chose to lie to me when I knew the truth. You said that you admired me because you thought that I played a straightforward game like you. I'm here to tell you, that we are not cut from the came cloth. Because I can look my actions into the face and stare them down, and YOU are a coward.
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Post by Roy on Dec 13, 2020 16:47:23 GMT
Marissa - If I wanted to get on a call and watch paint dry, I'd opt to have Sherwin Williams on my skype contact list instead of you. There's not much else to think from my perspective, so I'll leave it at that.
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Post by Roy on Dec 13, 2020 16:50:51 GMT
Juju - From what I've experienced of you, had we been on a tribe together earlier I think we would have had a much bigger relationship than we do. I'm glad to have met you, and I sincerely hope you know that my absence was merely struggling to juggle everything and not out of a lack of want to build with you.
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Post by Roy on Dec 13, 2020 16:54:51 GMT
Carson - You're a sweet soul. (Even though I don't believe in those). At this point, I'm disappointed in what you've done to me and what I feel that you think about me, but even when I was angry with you, you were patient with me. You listened. If Survivor was based only on the human aspect, you'd win a hundred times over. You're a bit too trusting, and I hope that with time, you grow out of this, because this could even affect you in your real life.
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Post by Roy on Dec 13, 2020 16:59:42 GMT
Louise - I feel like you're playing a grimy game. I hope I'm wrong, because if I'm right that would make me really sad. I do really like you. I do (did) really trust you. I just don't believe in you. And I don't get why you've done what you've done. By the time you read this, I'll have my answers anyways, so maybe this is pointless. But I am really glad for the times we got to spend together when it was good.
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Post by Roy on Dec 13, 2020 17:05:57 GMT
Danielle - I wanted you OUT! LMAO. I mean even at the time of writing this, you're an immense threat. But to my knowledge, you never switched up on me. You never changed. You never stopped checking in on me. You always kept me updated. You helped to make decisions when Zaid, Carson, Louise, Casey, and Erica were all too chicken shit to do so, all in just the tribal stage of the game. You're quiet, but you're strong. If this were an actual season, I'd be rooting for YOU. FUCK EVERYBODY ELSE I RESPECT YOU! Danielle, you could have been holding a knife to my throat all game and I'd still stan. You could stab me in the face and I'd still find a way to smile for it. I am very impressed by who you are as a person, AND THIS IS THE EXACT REASON WHY I NEEDED YOU TO GO. (I just couldn't deal with Erica lmaooo) But seriously, thank you for everything. (Even if you were a little messy behind my back).
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Post by Roy on Dec 14, 2020 2:07:39 GMT
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Post by Roy on Dec 14, 2020 15:44:22 GMT
I’m on break at work and I’m thinking... am I the villain? Like am I solely evil or is it someone else. Like what is my role in all of this? Do I know my role? Help.
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Post by Roy on Dec 15, 2020 1:04:23 GMT
Immunity? Blessings.
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Post by Roy on Dec 16, 2020 1:38:08 GMT
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Post by Roy on Dec 16, 2020 2:26:23 GMT
I'M SO TIRED OF THIS BITCH LOUISE! AND THEY'RE GONNA TAKE HER OUT AT FINAL 4!!!!!!!!!! Ugh, whatever.
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