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Post by Carson on Nov 24, 2020 1:08:29 GMT
"Forget the mistake, remember the lesson."
I pay 1 dollar a month for an app that gives me positive quotes daily and this one popped up, wow! I truly feel like that was fate. Obviously, I made a mistake in this game, and I'm going to own up to that. However, I apologized, and I'm going to choose to move on. I know at the end of the day I'm a kind guy and I fucked up and it happens to the best of us. I still believe, while my tone was mean, that my frustrations were valid, but I'm not going to say anything else on the matter because what I said was rude and it's a tense subject and I don't want to bring down the positive vibes anymore than I already have.
We swapped and IDEK how to feel about things, I'll keep updating as I go. I'm happy our tribe is 3 purp-2 yellow-2 green in terms of OG tribal lines. I still need to talk to everyone more in depth. Crossing my fingers that I get myself in a good position, but I feel like if I don't, I can just blame it on karma..... I've accepted my results in this game no matter what and I'm really grateful to have been given the chance to compete so far. Regardless of what was said, I'm truly loving this experience!!!!!!
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Post by Carson on Nov 27, 2020 3:29:44 GMT
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Post by Carson on Nov 28, 2020 7:29:19 GMT
CHEERS TO FINAL 13, BIOTCHES!!! WOOT WOOT
It is crazy to think how long we have been in the game so far. While this has been one of the most challenging games I have ever played, it has also been one of the most fun. I think what I adore the most about this structure of competition is that I feel as though I am making real, genuine bonds with people. Like, even non-game related bonds. These are friendships starting to form, and I am entirely grateful to have them in my day, because man has it been lonely since I have been home. I do not have any friends in the town I live in right now (when I am not on campus) because my family moved here in March when the pandemic hit. It has been really daunting thinking about how I have to spend two whole months in isolation, but I know I can stay strong and get through this hurdle. I have got over many hurdles in my life that I have not really opened up about to you all, and that is because I choose to TRY to go about my day with a positive mindset. Notice the emphasis on “try”, and that is because occasionally, I have my moments where I am weak. And hell, I own up to that! I am an imperfect human, as is everyone else, and damnit, that is okay!
Speaking of overcoming hurdles, an alliance was created today which consists of Roy and Danielle from Harrow 1.0, and Zaid and I from Ealing 1.0, or as I like to say, the dumpster fire tribe. This alliance calmed me down immensely from a game POV, because prior to the birth of this chat, my only alliance on this tribe was with Zaid and Ethan, which basically is not an alliance because lord knows we are not sticking strong to the end of this game. I truly do vibe with Roy and Danielle, for different reasons. Roy is an experienced, lethal player, and I would 100% rather work with him than against him. But besides that note, he is just a really funny, outgoing guy and I LOVE my chats with him. They are unique and unmatched, I cannot put into words how wildly hilarious this man is but he has a real gift. I cannot wait to talk to him outside the game. But anyways, some people are easily readable, Roy is not. So that is always scary. But I know it benefits me to be on his good side, so I am staying on it…for now. Danielle gives me major Marissa vibes. She is much more calm, relaxed, and on the back burner in terms of her thought process and strategy, at least based on my talks with her. She strikes me as a very chill player, and someone who always thinks before she speaks. Her and I have a ton in common which helps our talks flow really smoothly, something others have told me they are struggling with. Dani seems like a major end-game threat because she is just sneaky enough to slip under the radar, but she also knows what she is doing and has strong strategic prowess, so I will need to watch out for that. My calls with Danielle and Roy were over an hour and half each, which just brought so much joy to me because after learning about the way the tribes shook out, I knew it was in my best interest to work with the yellows and that is what has now happened (I THINK). Booyah!
I like my talks with Brenden so far, they have been quite flirtatious (jokingly) but I have some MAJOR concerns, so I have been very hesitant with talking to him about the game. For starters, this man has gone home super early in a few recent ORGs, which panics me greatly because it makes me think he is a wildcard. I know I should not box him in like that though, everyone can change their play style up from game to game. It is just scary because he very well could be an overplayer, and lord knows I do not need more chaos in my game right now. Also, I want my true allegiance to be with the yellows, and I do not want to be caught being in an alliance with everyone. Brenden has vocalized that he really likes Zaid and I, and he has also been talking a ton to Ethan. The absolute last thing I need right now is the three purples on this tribe being banded together as a group of three, because A) that is not the case, I do not trust Ethan as far as I can throw him, and B) it means I could be targeted for a bullshit reason. My relationship with Ethan is so weird because I still have not told anyone he has the idol, yet I do not trust him either. Like, I need to pick a side, lol! I would bet MONEY he has told Zaid he has it though, so like oh well. Brenden, Ethan, and Zaid all worked on the case three idol hunt a bit together, and I was not included much, which sucks, but I trust Zaid the most out of anyone, so I am not going to panic- if there is one thing I have learned, it is that panicking helps absolutely nobody.
I have not heard much of ANYTHING from Dusty. It is a shame because she seems like such a fun, exciting individual, and I want to learn more about her and who she is as a person. But she simply does not answer DMs. Like, I have tried. Over and over and over. At this point, I have just accepted the fact that she is a busy woman with a lot going on, and I refuse to shame her for that because that would be hypocritical (#oof). Based on everyone I have spoken with, it seems like it is the consensus that Dusty just does not talk to the tribe unless it is a random tribe call or video (which are very sweet and wholesome, by the way). If we were to lose, I would 100% push for a Dusty vote. I think others would be OK with that, but there were also rumors of a Danielle/Dusty/Roy/Brenden group, which does not make sense to me but whatevs, it is still something to look out for. I think either Casey or Louise will go home on the other tribe, which leaves yellow down to three members, and green still having all six in. With a merge on the horizon, Danielle/Roy would be cray cray not to take a shot at an OG green while they have the chance, so I have confidence that my alliance with them is not a sham. If it is, color me surprised.
In conclusion, I think my position on this tribe is not too bad. *KNOCK ON WOOD*. I am definitely not in the most powerful place I could be, but I also do not think I would be the first person to go if we lost, unless I get idoled out… which is a different story (Hi, Ethan). But even then, why would Ethan waste his idol on Dusty right before a merge? That makes absolutely zero sense to me, so I am cautiously optimistic. A tonnnnn of people are struggling with solving case three, or so I have been told. I bet SOMEONE is lying, and I also bet SOMEONE already has the case three idol, but either way it would be nice to finally solve it after trying so hard. Man, fuck case three LOL that shit is harder to solve than a fawkin calculus equation. Cheers to final thirteen, and to anyone who has made it this far with reading my confessional, I love you dearly and hope you stay safe!
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