Episode 5: Ealing 2.0 is worse than Ealing 1.0

[Marissa]

And, just like on OG Ealing, I only have one person I trust on this tribe: Juju. More to come

[Marissa]

Yay I survived the vote... But guess what, these people decided to “test me” by leaving me out of the true vote, so they’ve given me the jump and shown me that they don’t trust me and that I’m on the bottom of their alliance. Why not just vote me out if you don’t trust me?

The plan was for the five of us (me/Abby/Juju/Casey/Louise) to vote Lee. Then TC happens and three of them vote for Miranda, with only me and Abby voting for Lee. But here’s the twist: according to Juju, Abby’s plan all along was for Miranda to go home, and she pre-designated herself as the one who would fakely vote with me. Abby has been very vocal about the fact that she had never talked to Miranda. So Abby does the least work in the scavenger hunt and gets to vote off the person she gave up on. Must be nice to be comfortable..

Now, post-TC, Abby is doing this whole charade with me, pretending like she’s also hurt and confused why the other three didn’t tell her to vote Miranda and that we’re in trouble together. The big question is WHY not just tell me to vote Miranda if that’s what you wanted?? It’s understandable to leave Lee out of a Miranda vote because those two were obviously a tight pair, but why this? Either we all could’ve voted Lee..all voted Miranda..or agreed as a five to split the votes *ahead of time.* Any of those three options would’ve worked out great, compared to this convoluted galaxy-brain BS, and now Abby/Casey/Louise are going to have to keep up this facade with me. It’s so unnecessary and extra.

Like congrats, you all got me, you really pulled one over on me, you’re so smart. I’ve never understood the point of purposely leaving people out of votes (unless it’s someone who would definitely tell the target they’re in trouble, like Lee); maybe it’s just a feeling-of-power thing. It reminds me of Winners at War, when Michele was annoyed after being left out of the Wendell vote even though she would have gladly voted Wendell. That’s how I feel right now. Of course, I know that Lee isn’t feeling much better.

I’ve been trying so hard to keep my spot in this game and consistently reaching out to people to call, and they still don’t trust me. Casey told me he shared his idol information with me (on a super late-night call) but I didn’t give him anything, even though I literally sent him my idol info the next morning several hours before he’d even be awake. I also sent my idol info to Louise as a sign of trust! Every time I think I’m starting to find my footing in this game, the rug is pulled out from under me.

Hindsight is 20/20 and I should’ve voted with Lee/Miranda and pulled in Juju to take out Casey 4-3. Here’s why I didn’t do that:

a) Juju doesn’t trust Lee’s antics and wanted him gone, which is how I felt too. Both of us agreed that we didn’t want to leave our fate in Lee’s hands.
b) I didn’t want to have a 4-3 vote and have to do damage control with two people and create extra division in the tribe. Looking at our dumpster fire of a tribe chat, clearly that was a moot point.
c) Juju didn’t tell me about the voting-Miranda funny business until *after* TC, and if he would have told me ahead of time I definitely would’ve suggested the 4-3, but I thought it was logical for our new group to stick together against a common enemy.

No matter what, I was going to be on the bottom on this tribe; now I’m just on the bottom with Lee instead of being on the bottom with Louise or Casey. But I didn’t want to be complacent. I really wanted to work my way in and put myself in a more stable position moving forward, and that’s what I *thought* I did.

[Marissa]

If we lose this next immunity challenge (which I'm very nervous about, especially with the tension between Lee and everyone else, and Lee declaring defeat in the tribe chat), I'm 90% sure that my ass is grass. I'm gonna study as much as I can, but yeah..


First, Lee is the obvious easy odd-man-out, and if any of the top 4 (Abby/Juju/Casey/Louise) are paranoid that he actually has an idol, who are they going to throw a vote (or maybe all the votes) on? Me, duh. Abby was on call with me and acted all scared that "they" (Juju/Casey/Louise) would turn on her, and I was like 'Girl please, this was all your plan from the get-go' (which I obviously couldn't say), and she also has Juju to vouch for her. Like I may be the fool on this tribe along with Lee, but I'm not a total moron. Throwing vote(s) on me is not going to make anyone mad; no one is here to back me up or potentially feel burned by me being targeted, so I’m the obvious safe choice.


Abby also said, “Lee is such an obvious choice and I feel like the too-obvious choice never goes…” GIRL LMAO, you’re basically telling me that I’m going home next! She can act scared that it’s between me and her but I’m so over it. I don’t think she knows that Juju spilled the beans to me.


Basically I think I was used to split up the duo of Lee and Miranda, and now that Miranda (who Abby never talked to) is out of the picture and Abby still has Lee inexplicably wrapped around her finger, I’m going to be disposed of next. That way Abby will still have Lee being most loyal to her because she was “left out” of the “trio’s” plan, and she’ll have Casey and Louise being most loyal to her because she saved their lives (although I also did, like I could’ve easily voted with Lee and Miranda, but whatev).


The only question is, why is Abby going through the trouble of trying to make herself my #1 ally now. As I said, seems like a lot of unnecessary, convoluted, extra work. Why put herself in a position where it looks like I’d now give her my undying, undivided loyalty, only to cut me.


Interestingly, I’m in a position where I’m getting lots of information from different sides (Lee still talks to me and thinks I’m on the outs of a trio, Juju spilled the beans to me about the top 4 alliance, Abby is pretending to be my bestie, etc). It’s just a question of what I’ll be able to accomplish with this information. My best bet is to crawl far enough up Abby's butt that she's inclined to keep me as a loyal pawn and target someone else.


All I can hope for, if we lose the challenge, is that the top 4 want to split the votes or at least throw a vote because of idol paranoia (from me or Lee). That’s where Juju and I can possibly make something happen, possibly with Lee too, but I’m nervous. Constantly being on the bottom throughout this game has just been really hard, so yeah sorry I've been a debbie-downer, but I haven't given up yet and I'm not going to. If anyone has actually read all of my stuff, thank you

[Marissa]

Round 5:
sitting on the floor of my closet with wet hair, comparing this tribe to the Onion Alliance from Survivor Gabon, quality content!
also I love that this is exactly 10 minutes, was not planned