Post by Marissa on Dec 19, 2020 2:03:50 GMT
Here’s my last confessional (probably?). If anyone watches this whole video/has watched my videos thus far, **thank you.** (I once again apologize for my ratty appearance; just being-sick things!) This has been a challenging game for me, feeling on the outs throughout the early phase and swap phase, and consistently worrying about how people perceive me and comparing this game to my last performance.
It’s easy to go from a low (17th place/4th boot in my first game) to a high (4th place in my last game), but trying to go from that high to an even bigger high has been a lot of pressure that I put on myself. I know I get too in-my-head sometimes and have felt defeated in this game and felt like I haven’t played as flashy of a game as others, but whatever happens, I sincerely appreciate the opportunity and am so glad I didn’t quit and am so thankful for the relationships (I see you, Zaid and Juju!) that I built (and can’t wait to continue after the game). An extra thank-you for all the views/love I got during the first few rounds of the game when I was floundering. OK, end silly rant!
It’s easy to go from a low (17th place/4th boot in my first game) to a high (4th place in my last game), but trying to go from that high to an even bigger high has been a lot of pressure that I put on myself. I know I get too in-my-head sometimes and have felt defeated in this game and felt like I haven’t played as flashy of a game as others, but whatever happens, I sincerely appreciate the opportunity and am so glad I didn’t quit and am so thankful for the relationships (I see you, Zaid and Juju!) that I built (and can’t wait to continue after the game). An extra thank-you for all the views/love I got during the first few rounds of the game when I was floundering. OK, end silly rant!
