Episode 1: (11/13/20)

[Ethan]

Hello friends!! 

Hopefully only those who need to see this confessional are the only ones that can see it. I would die if I posted this under a public forum, but I am 94% sure that this is 100% a safe space! 

Yesterday evening went so much better than I thought it would go. I found connections with every person on my tribe and we all get along so well! I will legitimately be sad if we go to tribal and have to vote someone out. I don’t have anything negative to say about anyone on my tribe. I’m talking to most people today, but last night I was able to talk to Leanna for an hour and that went so well. We have a ton in common and we both told each other that we would most definitely be friends still after this game which makes me happy. She’s such an amazing person to get to know and I’m hoping we will be strong allies for each other. We are going to talk to other people today in one on ones and then reconnect in the evening to touch base on new things we learned and see who we want to work with moving forward. We've also been talking non stop this morning which has been amazing.

I think I'm in a really good spot right now, but it’s only been one day and I need to see how the rest of today goes. I’m anxious for the challenge coming up and I have a feeling I’ll suck at it but we will see. I don’t want to disappoint my tribe and really don’t want my tribe to go to tribal the first night. We will see what happens in the next couple of days!

Please enjoy my cringe first confessional! lmao 

[Erica]

you got this!!!!! im obsessed with u <333

[Ethan]

I just met with Zaid this morning and he was a ton of fun to talk to. We only talked for 20 minutes which was fine, but I felt kind of rushed. He did note that he had a bunch of other people to talk to this morning, but said that he gets good vibes from me and wants to continue talking. I definitely want to be his ally and get to know him more as a person. Hopefully we will talk again soon!

He also mentioned that he spoke to Leanna this morning who is worried about all of the guys working together. That thought never crossed my mind. Zaid also said that he thought it was going to be people of color against white people which is another factor I didn't consider. I don't want people of color in this game to feel like they're being targeted based on their identities. I will closely monitor who people are interested in voting out if we make it to tribal council and act accordingly. As a contestant in this game, my vote holds power, and I will ensure that it is casted in a way that does not intentionally oppress people of color on my tribe. This is difficult to navigate as I work to improve my own game, but I will do my best to protect my new tribe-mates and friends.

Stay tuned for more updates.

[Ethan]

Erica: OMG THANK YOU!!! I didn't know I would have fans!! Thank you for your support! Ahhhhh My heart is so full right now!

[Hannah]

LOVE YOU SO MUCH KING

[Ethan]

Hannah : AWWW THANKS QUEEN!!! LOVE YOU TOO!!!

[Ethan]

Since talking to Zaid this morning, I was able to have a great hour long conversation with Carson which went really well. Carson and I have connected really well on a deeper level and I know Leanna also likes Carson so hopefully we can be a trio soon. I don't want to strategize too much right now, just because it's only day 2 and we don't even know if we are going to tribal yet or not. *knocks on wood*. Speaking with Marik also went well I think. He's fun to talk to, we have some things in common, and we were able to connect a bit more which was good. Our conversation was around 40 minutes. I hope to develop a deeper relationship with him as well. Both Carson and I have had the least amount of communication with Marik which is not a great thing at this point in time, but I truly love every person on my tribe and hope I won't have to vote someone out any time soon.

I am meeting with Marissa in a few minutes and then we are having a tribe call while the challenge is released in 20 minutes to discuss next steps. I've been chatting all day with Marissa who reminds me of myself with some of the funny/iconic things she's been saying throughout the day. We really bonded over Starbucks and capitalism so it's been a great day communication wise with her. I'm nervous for the first immunity challenge coming up, and I'm already tired from talking to everyone and being anxious the last 24 hours. Hopefully this evening will be somewhat restful for people.